Who IS That in the Mirror?

It doesn’t take too long before people start noticing changes in how you look when you’re losing weight. When you REALLY start losing, it’s funny to interact with people. Suddenly you notice that they develop “wandering eyes” while they’re talking to you. Glancing down from your face to your feet and back again really quickly like they think you won’t notice. I could easily feel offended but what would that do for me? Nothing. So look all you want. I’m looking better every day and I know it. LOL.

You don’t really notice it yourself, not at first anyway. You know your clothes fit better. For me, my wedding ring started getting loose and even my feet were sliding around in my shoes. Those were all really cool things. I even thought the brakes in my van were going bad until I realized that I’d lost so much weight that I needed to move the seat closer to the pedals. THAT would have been an embarrassing trip to the mechanic…

But this last week I’ve started to SEE the changes myself. My face has changed so much that while I’m washing it in the mornings it feels like someone else’s face. Several times I’ve glanced down at my arms and thought, wow, whose arms are those? And when I look into the mirror I can almost make out a figure forming. A shape other than “round!”

I’ve spent all of my adult life–and most of my youth–looking in the mirror and being disgusted by what I saw. Now I find myself dreaming of and wondering what I might look like underneath all of this fat. I really have no idea what’s going to be there. It’s kind of crazy, you know? It’s like opening a gift, unwrapping it layer-by-layer. Granted it’s the most difficult present I’ve ever had to unwrap, but I’m sure it will be worth it.